I've really ruined what I thought I could do in this life.

But oh how wrong I was!

Who do you think You Are?

- nobody of course!

I do not think I was created to have relationships or nurturing relationships at all.

This is not the first time that it has gone straight to hell.

You should never blame yourself, they say?

But I can not blame the other person! Is it me or the person who has a diagnosis that fucks up your whole world?

No, exactly!

My life was not fun before borderline but it's worse with the fucking diagnosis?! I thought I already had all the combinations required to be stamped as a zero! But no, just like with the cream of the crop, it's borderline!

Have never received diagnoses before, but maybe it has to do with the fact that the others I was born with and lived more or less my whole life with, while borderline I got in recent days due to trauma, just like I got PTSD 2015... but rather PTSD than borderline. For no other diagnosis fucks up your whole world in the way that borderline does.

I + RELATIONSHIPS × BORDERLINE = FUCKED UP!!!